Here is my artistic response to this week's Soul-Calendar-10 meditation verse by Rudolf Steiner. For a brief introduction to this project, please see my first couple of posts on the blog pages. See also calendarofthesoul.net where you can see a range of translations into English and other languages. By the way, I am not in any way suggesting that my translations are preferable to any of the published translations. But I don't want to infringe any copyright, hence I am offering my own, literal, translations here.
Rudolf Steiner's original soul-calendar-10 meditation
Zu sommerlichen Höhen
Erhebt der Sonne leuchtend Wesen sich;
Es nimmt mein menschlich Fühlen
In seine Raumesweiten mit.
Erahnend regt im Innern sich
Empfindung, dumpf mir kündend,
Erkennen wirst du einst:
Dich fühlte jetzt ein Gotteswesen.
To summery heights
rises up the sun’s shining being;
It takes my human feeling
along into its space-widths.
Anticipating there stirs within
Sensation, vaguely to me announcing,
Know shall you one day:
You were felt now by a god’s-being.
Last week's verse exhorted me to lose myself to find myself. This week, the being of the sun is climbing further towards its summit, carrying my 'human feeling' with it into the wide space of the cosmos. Mind you, not just my feeling, but my human feeling. Do I have any other feelings than human ones? Of course, I have lots of feelings that are not human or at least not fully human. My feelings include desire, lust, anger, envy and so on. And while I, a human being, experience these, to claim that these feelings are human in the highest sense of the word would be paramount to equating my lower self with my higher self, in other words, to not see the difference between my lower and higher self. So the sun-being takes the purest, the most truly human feelings away to its realm, leaving the others behind. I am trying to imagine the purest of my feelings (love?) being carried up by the sun-being (the universal Christ-being?!). Up there, in the cosmic space it weaves and wafts, it becomes more spacious, it is perhaps purified further, distilled, then maybe suffused by or joined with divine cosmic love. And then very dimly within, I sense something very special may have happening. Something stirs in me, an inkling that maybe at some time in the future I will come to fully realise that it was this godly-being of the sun who felt me. Yes, it's not me feeling it/him/her but I am being felt by this being, this Being. Maybe within the purest possible human feeling, love, it is divine being that feels me. And it can only feel me thus, because only the highest human love is akin to cosmic, divine love. But it still doesn't quite capture the meaning I feel. It's not that this godly Being feels me, as if from without. It's more that I have become a part of this Being's feeling. My higher Self is coming into being in and through being felt by this divine Being. Divine feeling here is a creative deed in which I myself come into existence. But not 'I' as my conscious, cognising 'I', but 'I' as 'Warmth-I' or 'Love-I' or 'Felt-I'. Hence it's all experienced as a vague inkling, a sensing, rather than as a clear thought.
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